Sunday July 30 2017

Hey Baby Girl!

I knew you were going to pass out early lol. :) I am surprised you made it as long as you did to be honest. Being on the water like that the sun zaps the life out of you. I missed you tonight baby girl. I always miss you when you're not 'with' me. I am glad you are getting some good sleep time. I know how tired you have been with staying on a schedule, training, your stomach, etc etc.....plus the kayaking?! Yeah baby you lasted longer than expected. I am right now, at this very moment, fantasyzing about being next to you, cuddling and snuggling you. If I was next to you, my arms would be around you, yours around me, 1 leg over you, arms intertwined with yours, fingers interlocked, lips to your forehead  and I would gently whisper in your ear:

"Shhhhh baby girl. You're safe and loved in these arms, shhhhhh sleep baby girl shhhhhh"

I am thinking about how much I love falling asleep 'next' to you. Its so calming listening to you breath at night when we are on the phone together. Lets do that again once or twice before you go. What do you think?

Interesting Adrian Fact #231
Did you know that I am not a fan of saying goodbye to you, no matter the circumstance? You've seen how much work it is to get me off of Skype with you.

I am so excited for the day when you are in my arms. Your breath on my chest for the first sleepy night cuddle session will be one of the major milestones in my life.

So hey... I was looking at cool places to stay for a couple nights when you are here and I thought of one great idea, that led to another, potentially awesome idea. I think you you will agree when I say

TREEHOUSE!!

I was thinking for a weekend while you are here we could rent out a tree house, they have them all over Airb&b. Check out some of these tree house suites we can stay at possible...here in San Diego!
This one is like 200 bucks a night is all.

I like the shower... mmmbaby I wanna soap you up with hot water and my hot cum. 

 You would finally see the milky way galaxy the way is supposed to be seen :)

Then it got me thinking... why couldnt our dream house be a tree house...or at the very least have a tree house vacation cabin. Mmm I am way too turned on thinking of the making love to you, up in a tree, on a war summer night, under the stars, all night long.

I love you so much. 

Pieces.

...but first, the musings of a man in love.

I want you to know what your post means to me. (I was pretty sure that's what you were working on. You gave it away when you said "You'll see!")

When you told me to check it out, I was speechless. Speechless and overwhelmed by the crazy bass drop in my stomach, the rave hit like a sonic boom. Before I ever read the words I knew how tender of a moment this was going to be. I knew you told me something of priceless value. Your eyes told me how badly you wanted me to understand what you feel for me. They were piercing and deep. 

I know how you feel about words. That is one of the things that makes what you wrote even more meaningful. There were other things too, little things. I want to tell you about some of the little things that I noticed. The first is how badly you wanted to post to me too. You asked me how to do it, and then you did it without putting it off. This whispers to me that you needed me to understand the passion you have for me. You wrote to me while we were on Skype, and as a result, you gave me far more than a love letter. You gave me a snapshot of your heart at that exact moment in time. You took the time to find a picture that represented us. That is how I know you gave me this gift because you wanted to, not because you felt like you had to. These are some of the reasons I felt overwhelmed by your love.

The first time I read your words I was hardly able to pay attention. I was having an acute case of the feels, and your too damn cute. Seriously, I couldn't help but watch your reactions to my reactions, it was endearing, a precious moment just for you and me. When you look at me like that, time stops. It is the best feeling in the world...and the most distracting in the world! :)

The mental image that I will hold on to is that moment when we were both tearing up. You gave me a beautiful gift. I am so excited about the future that we have together. I am committed to you, bound by love and kissed with passion always and forever.

PS. I decided if it is going to cost me a kiss every time I want to get a hat back.... well I have a whole lot of hats you can steal....and I want them all back! :)


Your Adrian Bear. 

PS. It might still be uploading depending what time you read this but....
Here is the new link for season 5 Game of Thrones

The Warm Feeling In My Tummy

Every time I think of you, I get that warm feeling in my tummy.

Thinking of all the things you do for me and all the ways you try to tell me you love me... it makes the butterflies and the moths come for the rave.

I've been meaning to write to you for a while, but I never really quite knew what to say. You know how I am with words, and if it's not quite right I just can't say.

I'd like to show you that I care and that I do love you and see the effort you make. I want to make the same effort for you, with the small and big things, including everything in-between! So you're asking me what I'm doing and I think it's so funny cause you'll see this soon. But I'll keep my giggles to myself for now.
Looking at you right now makes me think of my bed time, going to bed with your voice in my ear is the best lullaby that I've ever heard, I can almost imagine you next to me. Can't wait until I can open my eyes😍 and see you there in the morning too.

There's not much to do with my days☀ so far, just waking up early to work out and play games, but I must say they're never dull when I have you to talk to. By the way, I would steal your hat too, though the price to see it returned is a kiss.

I cant wait to be in your company (just to steal your hat), even the silence between us would be in comfort. Though that's quite possibly the only thing that would be between us, I have a goal to keep in touch with you always.

You know this is gonna be us!

My heart💓 flutters when I look at you, and thinking about our future together makes me almost cry with joy. I know it'll be great as long as we have each other.

P.S You were looking at me while I wrote some of this, and you said you'll be able to read me better. I guess we will see!

P.SS You're right, I'm very excited about this!

7/28/2017

I came up with this when you were napping over the last two days on Skype. I was just having fun with words in my mind while thinking about you. This is what happened. Its just me being a little goofy, kinda silly and absolutely crazy for you.

Gamer Goddess
What am I nuts? Why do I like this girl so much?Is it because she is cute and sweet?Or is it ‘cause in video games this hottie packs the heat?I’m not going to lie, I really think that's fuckin’ neat!I am just being honest by sayin’ when I it comes to ships She’ll win the ranks because she W-A-S-D’s like a tank
Now I will be the first to admit… Her beauty is truly legit. She reminds me of a siren vixen goddess! On behalf of men with impeccable taste, We declare that her beauty awed usand if I had a world war 2 bomber, I would only paint Bombin BetsyBoo the Bombshell on her. .
You are the most beautiful female being I have ever seen.A century behind us, you would of been a silver screen goddess.Marilyn Monroe would still be at the unemployment office
She is a nerd and a geek, I like the way her mind thinks She is a catch because of her soul, and between you and me, if she only had her looks, I would of booked, but I believe and I know that she is a Queen in utero. (extra points for being beautiful)

I like this picture. I am always thinking about how we are two separate tree's growing together, our roots intertwine. Before long the roots of the two merging trees become the same system, and thus the trees in fact become one.

(I put our faces in it, although it looks kinda off, I wanted to put a little more time into it.

All Of My Love To You

Masterpiece.

Yesterday was a day that I truly needed.

We talked for a long time on video. You fell asleep while I was listening to you breathe. Hypnotic currents of gentle breath, In..out..in..out, like warm waves on the sand at sunset. Your adorableness in sleep was a siren call and it bade; Come, lie, nap with me! I was powerless to withstand, I did yield. lol :)

I am a sucker for those kinds of moments, the ones that rise out of the mundane, A single flower pushing through a desert floor. A moment that is simple and abstract.

Afterwards we played some ships. I didn't get a chance to div with you for one reason or another but I did get a chance to help blow you up.

I have actually been practicing so I can be more fun to play with.... I hope you notice.

I started playing some DD's too. I think I might be just sick of the cruiser class. Would you be interested in running some DD's with me to give me some pointers?

At night I was able to give you a goodnight kiss. I felt honor, it is MY voice that calms you and brings tranquility to your mind and body.

Today

Today was the day you found out you might be going to basic training early. That means I get to hold you in my arms much sooner than expected, for it is in my arms that you belong. 

It also means you will be starting basic sooner. Obviously right? durrrr :)

Baby you are going to be just fine. I believe in you. I know you can do this. I want to give you a gift that helps me. When I played sports, during those times I was ready to give up, on the verge of collapse and had no choice to go on. I would recite the last two lines of this poem in my head. I hope it serves you as well as it serves me.




Invictus
BY WILLIAM ERNEST HENLEY

Out of the night that covers me,
      Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
      For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
      I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
      My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
      Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
      Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
      How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate, 
      I am the captain of my soul. 

We had a quick phone call and played some ships. I think we had a misunderstanding about something but I don't remember what. I do remember how good it felt to hear you say "I love you". Those are three words that never grow old to me. They are oxygen to my soul, with them I am strong, poised, alive, without them I am fatigued and weary.

Another, better video chat in the afternoon. I enjoyed watching you laugh when you were talking to your Ma. Your smile is sunshine on a cold winter morning. I couldn't resist no matter how I tried, and I did try. The pulsating of my cock became so overwhelming I had no choice but to relent and give in. I came for you twice, both times with the force of an impassioned lover drinking in his only love. It was exciting seeing the desire in your eyes as I exploded hot sticky cum all over. I love you.

You looked so beautiful as always. You are stunning to me. A temptress vixen and my sweetheart kitten. To look at you is to understand why God made Eve after Adam, for Eve was Gods masterpiece. You are a masterpiece!

I Miss You, That's Who!

Epic night, my beauty is gone 

I think she took her kamikaze 

Fuckin sucks, she no log-on

Scandal bigger than Benghazi

Her Mom took the technology

ended betsy-adrian communication

Soul feels empty without apology

Epic come back,  heart’s liberation. 

She stole my heart, I said keep 

Next to her always is my dream

Missing her dearly, I feel to weep

Love her so much, Its extreme. 

I love talking to you. I came up with some questions that could be conversation starters. I miss you baby girl. It kinda hearts my little heart that you aren't around.

The Conversationalist: 

• Did you have an irrational childhood fear?
• What’s the worst/weirdest date you’ve ever been on?
• If you had to be trapped inside one giant food, and the only way to escape was to eat your way out of it, which food would you choose?
• If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?
• What does success look like to you?
• In what ways are you do you think we are the most similar? How are we different? 
• Name something you would like to do, but are too scared to try.
• If you won the lottery, what is the first thing you would purchase? What would you purchase for Me?
• What is your earliest memory?
• What is the strongest part of our relationship? What is the weakest? How can We improve the weak spots to be stronger together? 
• How would you describe Me to a friend? How do you think I would describe you?
• Who is your celebrity crush? What attracts you to them?
• When do you feel most like yourself? Why do you think this is?
• What motivates you the most in life? What makes you feel discouraged or disengaged?
• Is the glass half empty or half full? Has this outlook changed over the years? What do you think has affected this point of view?
• What was your favorite book or movie as a child? What did you love about it? Do you still enjoy the same type of stories?
• If you were describing Me to someone else, what would you say?
• Describe the perfect day — what do you do and with whom is it shared?
• What did you want to be when you were a little kid? Why?
• Lets make a bucket list of places we have always wanted to see.Would you rather have the power to read people’s minds or to fly? And how would you use it?
• If you had to choose one famous actor to have dinner with, who would that be? Why?
• If money weren't a problem, what would you chose to do in life?
• If you had to lose one of these three senses—sound, sight or touch...which one would you choose?
• If you could eat one type of food as much as you wanted without getting fat, what food would that be?
• If you had a $100.000 right now, what would you buy or do with it? Why?

Please download these so I can upload the rest of them for you.


Game of Thrones Season 2

Game of Thrones Season 3


There is so much to say and nothing to say. I love you. I love you dearly, You are special to me. I trust you. You would never hurt me on purpose. You miss me tremendously too. You care for me like I care for you. You are excited to be with me. I am excited to be with you. You like vid chatting and being on the phone with me, as much as I do you. You appreciate all that I do for you. I appreciate all that you do for me. I love you. I love you dearly. You are special to me. I trust you.

Needless to say I did not sleep. Its about 3:25 AM and my stomach is in knots. I had to go for a drive. I absolutely hate fighting with you. I don't have a week a stomach for arguments, I kinda get off on them. Not with you though. I hate it. I hate it bad. It takes away from this beautiful harmony we have. I think we are smarter than this. We care for each other too damn much to fight like this.

I re-read our conversation about 1,000 times. I read it from my perspective, from yours. I read it in an angry tone and a soft tone. I want to apologize. I understand why you want to spend time with homeboy. He is a dear friend, probably closer to a brother than just a buddy. You don't want him to feel neglected, especially as you are going off to basic, nor do you want the friendship to grow cold.

Sunday July, 23 2017

Today was Sunday. Sunday's are the days when I talk to you the least. I don't like Sunday's that much. Truth be told I have never liked Sunday, except for the evening time. In the evening, during the twilight hours of the week I have routine and I have been doing it in one form or another since I was 10 or 11. I find a quiet corner of the world where I can be alone for just a few minutes, and there I allow my mind to reflect on the past 168 hours. This exercise has evolved over the years from a simple mental reflection, devoid of purpose into what I now practice today. This weekly meditation has turned into an opportunity for recursive self-improvement. It is an incredible opportunity for me to become a better man.

For the past few years I have been using the same formula during my Sunday night sessions. My mind drifts towards the major events of the week wherein I identify  moments that stand out the most. For those times that bring embarrassment or pain I force myself to think on the things that led up to that moment and through the lens of hindsight I try and identify what the warning signs were. This way I may recognize similar signs in the future. Often times the negative could have been avoided, often times not. The great epiphany is this; My reaction only made things worse. Identifying how I could of reacted differently has been a profoundly useful exercise, It has been the catalyst for much growth and more often then not, allows me to find closure on things.

Those circumstances that were positive are treated differently. After  I attempt to remember how it felt during and after. Was I laughing? Did I feel joy or peace? Identifying and reflecting  on  positive emotions directs my heart to a state of gratitude. It is in this state of gratitude, after I have



into a   which of my actions contributed to that specific moment in time so tha


 that I have been practicing. I am not sure when it started or even what prompted it. I have been doing it in one form or another since my freshman year in high school, if not earlier.

Amazing

Sunday.....

I didn't get a chance to talk to you that much today, as is often the case with Sunday. It is the day where Your Mom is guaranteed to be home and also a chance for the two of you to spend some much needed time together.

Even though I missed connecting with you on a deeper level I am grateful that we were able to connect at all. I smiled when you told me about painting your nails and toes, and again when you told me about the pizza and popcorn. I felt a flood of warmth and excitement flood through me like a flash-flood when you named me sweetie and cutie, and that you wanted to love me up.

I told you I thought you are amazing, because you are. I meant it. You are amazing for many reasons, not the least of which is you put up with me. Here are a few more reasons.

-You really are friggin' hilarious. I find your sense of humor and the wit that drives it amazing.

There is no sweeter sound in the world than your voice. It is music to my ears and it is lovely, just like you. Your laugh is one of the sweetest things in the world and making you laugh is one of the greatest compliments in the world. I love it. I live for it.

-Your strength of character is attractive and amazing.

You speak up when something bothers you. I have witnessed you do this many time on TS. You have spoken boldly and without hesitation to me when something I have said or done upsets you, and you do it tactfully.

-Your ambition is inspiring and amazing.

You are going into the Navy, an ambitious decision to be sure. Your plans are much bigger than that however. You want to be sharpening the cutting edge of research and development on technologies that don't exist yet. That is amazing. I will always support you in your endeavors. I will be your biggest cheerleader when you have success, and an emotional safety net when you experience set backs.

You must of fallen asleep super early and I am glad you did because I know how tired you have been. I missed you though. I missed it when I couldn't give you a goodnight kiss. I will miss you when I try and close my eyes and sleep myself. There is something transcendentally exquisite about falling asleep together on the phone; A vision of things to come.

Today I worked out twice. I went for a walk. I sat outside and read. I was home alone for most of the day. I watched Game of Thrones. I fixed the washing machine. I thought of you. I love you.

In My arms close, tight,

Hey Baby Girl.

I woke up cause I can't sleep. It's almost 3AM here. I fell asleep with you on the phone. I am super excited to fall asleep with you in my arms. To know that I will be able to hold you all through the night. What an honor that will be. I fall asleep so much easier when you are on the phone with me. 

Sleep comes so much easier. 

I love the idea of you curling up into me as I wrap myself around you. I want you close and tight I want to feel your warm breath on my skin as I get lost in the soothing rhythm: inhale...exhale....inhale....exhale....

In My arms close, tight, through the night

Arms, legs intertwined and tangled, 'til daylight.

Shadows adorn My beauty; bathed in moonlight. 

Gentle kisses, I love you whispers. I, Your Knight. 

Inhale, exhale and over again, warm breath caressing skin

Safe, adored, cherished; Curled up, cuddling under chin

Right now, this moment, best that life has ever been.

Fingers touching velvet flesh, Her voice a violin. 

Perfect-to-me dream girl became waking existence. 

Passion, love; to her gifted. giving life consistence

Her heart beats or is it mine. together is persistence

Holding her close, tight, always forever, fate's insistence. 

The Bloggiest of the Bloggers

So I thought I would give you a quick crash course on how to blog on here.

1. Check your email for the invite I sent you. I sent an invite to my other email so it would look like yours.
Open the email and accept invitation if you haven't already.
If you cant find it do a search for "the best part of my day is you" If you have gone through these steps skip to last two pics.


Click accept invitation

click accept invitation again

click new post

This is the new post screen... it works very similarly to google docs

1. You can work in either compose or html mode. Compose is a what you see is what you get, html is to write it in....duhh..... javascript lol. :) Make sure compose is pushed
2. include a title
3. Write your masterpiece here, typical word processor options.
4. hit publish. good to go.

Simply close the window after you hit publish.

To  return to blogger after you have gone though this  just click on the blogger icon in your gmail homepage here: Sometimes you have to scroll down in the app window to find it.  Or go to www.blogger.google.com and use your gmail creds to login.

Goodnight Kiss

Ahhh man.... I guess I missed our chance to have a goodnight kiss on the phone. 

That's what I have decided to call our night time phone call..."A Goodnight Kiss"

Today we talked on the Skype for a long time. It was wonderful. We had a little misunderstanding about something, doesn't even matter what because it was just that; A misunderstanding. The point is We both know in our hearts we adore each other. You have filled my heart so full with Your affection and love there is no room for anything else. 

Betsy Boo, You are my Queen. You have done something to me. Something profound. Something that can't be changed. You shifted my entire universe.

I was not looking to fall in love. Now, I find myself falling and each day that passes I fall further and further. Before we started talking I was just existing. I wasn't sad, but I wasn't happy. My life wasn't without purpose, but I didn't have a purpose. My focus has been readjusted and my vision is clear. You are my focus and vision. 

I never imagined I would find someone who could be perfect for me. Never did I think I would feel this way. You have given me the most precious gift, and that is Your heart. It is more precious to me than silver, gold and diamonds.

This is why I say: You are my gift. You are my angel. You are my breath of fresh air, my heartbeat, my future, my smile, my laugh, my hopes, my dreams, my.... everything

You are my sun that chases away the night. My angel bathed in sunlight.
You are my sanctuary from the storm. An everlasting fire burning bright and warm
You are my medicine to the disease. As comforting as a gentle summer breeze. 

You are my Betsy. 

I am your Adrian

I don't know how I got so friggin lucky. 

I am telling you.... watch these...

Hey baby girl.

You fell asleep early tonight. I was glad I got a chance to say goodnight on the phone though.

Today was a good day. In the morning you talked me back to sleep. You are so cute when rambling. You kept laughing at yourself for not knowing what to say next, it was just about the most endearing thing ever.

What really melted my heart like butter in a microwave was how excited you were to ramble me to sleep. Do you feel that special when I do it to you? I hope you do. I want you to feel as special as it made me feel.

Your voice is a blanket, it wraps me in your affection and holds me in warmth of heart. Your heart. Your love.  

 So I stubbornly stayed awake instead of drifting off. The moment was too precious to sleep it away. Your warm, affectionate and endearing voice, laughing at not knowing what to say.

We played some ships together. I got my tier 8 shortly after you logged off.

GoT Update:

I have season 1, episodes 1 - 8 uploaded to HERE. Strangely I am missing episode 6. Ill try to download it today. But whats up there is available for download. 

Major Houses of Westeros; Epic History

These are funny, and super interesting.

If you don't know some of the pre-history of the story... you are missing most of the story.

You don't want to miss most of the story...do you? Unless you are afraid... are you afraid?

Afraid to make the transition to super-fan from casual fan? Watch it... I dare you! Everyone is doing it. lol.

Game of Thrones

Echo,

Hey beautiful. Your oh so nerdy and handsome Game Of Thrones guru and personal Westeros knight in shining armor (bound by oath to you in the sight of Gods and Men) gives you

A Song Of Ice And Fire! 

(You still have the ebooks right?)

Here is the link to the shared folder on my drive. Please don't share this with anyone ok? I know you would never but just making sure we are on the same page. 

Follow this to my shared drive folder. Be patient as I upload these for you

In case you can't extract a .rar with current software...although I am pretty sure Windows X can extract rar files.... here is the download for Winrar64

This is my favorite media player and plays the movie files I sent you

Monday Morning Brain Candy

Hey baby.
Today is Monday and maybe the start of a new blog tradition

MONDAY MORNING MIND MELTDOWN!!!!
hey.... did you just roll your eyes at me?! --- YOU DID!  :)

So these two short videos will blow your mind, I promise.
They are from two of my favorite YouTubers.
I like connecting with you intellectually! (And every other way too!)
ILY

Its not the best, but its the idea that counts right?
Now that I look at it I think your hand is going to be a little smaller, :)
Cant wait to make this a reality.
ILY.

Fuel the Cute Cat Addiction.

I think today has been the closest to what it will be like when we are together. We literally were with each other the whole day and it didn't once get old.

I woke up hella early, and went for an early morning walk with you. Then we chatted on video for hours upon hours. You are so damn hot baby. It was fun, it was intimate, it was amazing. You drive me wild with desire and loyalty.

Then, we played some ships, and I didn't suck too bad lol. And at night I got to be the one whispering you off to a peaceful slumber.

Today was a great day. It was a glimpse into Our beautiful future together . 

Our future is worth it! 

Thank You

Yesterday I saw what happens when two people, who truly care for each other work together to overcome an obstacle.

I have witnessed tragic misunderstandings and the destruction it causes to a relationship. This almost always happens when one or the other person (or both) is  more concerned with their own feelings than those of their partners. What starts out as something arbitrary and insignificant ends in heartache.

On the other hand, when a couple is more concerned with each others feelings and thoughts the only outcome possible is absolute union of heart, mind, body and soul.

Betsy, 

Thank you for showing me how important my feelings are to you. Thank you for taking the time to listen and not react, but understand. It means more than you know. You make it so easy to fall deeper and deeper in love with you with each day. You make me feel so damn grateful that I belong to you.  I give you my word to put your feelings ahead of mine, and seeking to understand before being understood.

Yesterday taught me that together we will overcome whatever life will throw at us because we are both willing to loose ourselves and remember each other.

Love

Adrian

Program Your Mind For Success.